I want to write so many things right now but I can’t seem to find the words. Nothing is flowing, nothing is working. I just need to take a step back before I can take two steps forwards. I’ve been absent. I will continue to be absent. I won’t lie, I’m always saying that I’m working on things but I never end up doing anything at all. Everything is left in the idea stage. I have poor time management and school is a priority at the moment – as much as I hate to say that. My schoolwork has to come first. So I need to take a step back. A few weeks ago I decided to take a break from social media, I temporarily disabled Elysian Haze’s Instagram and it felt good. I logged back on the other day, I thought I was ready but I decided to permanently delete it but not before creating a new one. Why am I like this? It’s there for when I’m ready to take those two steps …
i want to write so many things, i want to let the words flow. you know, i thought we were friends. obviously i was wrong.
i just want to feel something.
i’m seventeen years old and i’ve yet to experience the world for what it really is.
it’s an idea. nothing more, nothing less.
it’s elysian haze, or at least another attempt at it.
a letter written by me for you. there is so much i want to tell you, to ask for, to dream of. whatever happens, i wish you all the best.